Missing

In my life...I am missing I miss him who is current I miss the boy who became a man I miss my friends I miss my family I miss having money I miss peace of mind I miss strength I miss my exes who are still friends I miss the tears I cried I miss traveling I miss a lot But what I miss most, is being a Mom to my own kids I have children who belong to others I have a job I love I have my family around me I have love like no other I have a roof over my head I have food I can give to others I have technology to connect me I have intelligence I have understanding of many things I believe in many things I accepted many things even when it was hard I accepted what was impossible I accepted what I hated I accepted the plan He chose for me I accepted surgeries needed to make me better I accepted examinations that hurt my soul I accepted removal of a womanly part I accepted emptiness that followed that removal I accepted that I would not be a mother to bear children And now I remember what I am MISSING