Decline
My eyes ache
So sore
Oh the ache
So tired I can’t breathe
No air
No air
And night after night after night after night
The cries come from the crib
And I’m flung into consciousness
As I nurse and I shush and I hush and pat and I yawn
One time two times three times four
Eyes aching
Body aching
But I can’t seem to sleep
And I toss and I turn
Sideways
On my back
On my belly
With pillow
Without pillow
Sheets on
Sheets off
And the seconds become minutes become hours
My anxiety meets the rays of morning light
Which pierce through the blinds
Oh God no
It’s morning
How will I make it through today
Fatigue wraps her claws around me
Tighter and Tighter each day
Life forced sucked
I am a brittle shell
And you with me so cold
So cool
So curt
So short
And I wonder
Where are you?
What have we become?
Giggles
Chatter
Questions
Replace the cries from the crib
Air filled lungs
No sore eyes
I’m ready to work on this
But you are gone
And he asks,
Why don’t you live with us anymore